what can i say? i’m experiencing the inevitable descent.
final reviews. fiiiiinaaaaal reviewwwwwwws.
Hi! I guess it’s about time for some kind of life update. A pulse, maybe? I’m alive, I’m here, I’m working like crazy, because this is what third year should be like, right? yes.
I apologize for my absence! This year is going by faster than I ever expected. So far, I’ve been getting 3-4 hours of sleep, slaving away from 8pm to 12am right before class, going to the occasional weird arty farty party on Thursdays, among other things. Life is good, I have to say. I don’t want to ever admit things like that but it’s good to acknowledge it before– you know–it’s gone. heh.
Another important thing that happened in my life: I was offered a design internship at GOOD Magazine this summer in LA! Exciting things are happening and I can’t contain myself. Meanwhile, I just want to survive my last few weeks of BFA 3. Maybe the next time you see me I’ll have more than just designer bags under my eyes. X____X
Until then, I’ll see ya, kool kats.
nights where you spend your time living inside your own mind, allowing distractions to fill your head with false hopes. nights where you then lose your mind because. nights where you allow delirium to carry you through until dawn. nights where you stress out because you can’t allow yourself to fail. nights where you stop giving a damn. nights where conversation leads to deeper understanding. nights when coffee becomes your best friend. nights when you need to be your own best friend. nights when you realize that it’s actually morning.
stranger and stranger
starting this blog back in 2009 seemed like a no-brainer. i was a 19-year old post highschool girl that would blog about fashion, friends, and mundane everyday things. now there’s totally nothing wrong with that, but i’ve come to realize that this blog really needs to grow up.
i still want a place where i could just “vomit” all my gritty, raw feelings in the form of a photo (because it’s mysterious and almost vague that it can relate to anybody and keep anyone’s interest), but lately i feel like i’m being drowned out by all this visual stimuli that i am left without words and nothing to say.
idea-obscura is a conglomeration of things that i feel talk about me, things i’ve done, but it’s an overall mess like the back of one’s closet. maybe this is a point of departure into something more… not serious… maybe just a place where i could articulate the things i see into words, rather than photos of pictures with no context or understanding.
don’t know where this is going, but it’s just a thought. i’m overwhelmed by the numerous following i have and the wonderful connections i’ve made through this blog that i’d prefer not to just leave this in the dust and start anew somewhere else. but, something’s gotta change…
Just sent these out yesterday. :) Expect yours to come soon! Happy New Years, my tumblr friends ~
so i’ve mentioned before about my exhausting semester, filled with sleepless nights and caffeineited blood constantly running through my veins? yep. well today marks my first day of winter break! hurray! i have about 2 or so weeks to do things that normal people do before i get back to the grind. oh the possibilities…
i cleaned up my desk, too. it feels like some kind of detox ritual. the messy piles of paper and tiny dust bunnies are finally nonexistent, just like my anxieties. hehe. tomorrow i have big plans to wrap myself in several blankets, watch some movies, and go to sleep. can’t wait.
My astronaut dreams have finally come true~
Happy Halloween, everyone!
oh hi, i’m alive! sorta.
i realize that for me to fully succeed at CalArts, i have to completely disregard my normal bodily functions and/or needs. i just recovered from an all nighter, but it appears that the vicious cycle continues on…
10/30 Things Due for this Week:
Marxisms & Anarchisms
- read, discussion comments
- re-do letterhead, business cards, and envelope
- create packaging application
- design food truck
- fully fleshed out type map (working!)
- motion storyboards
Cavorting with the Devils
- Fantasy and Documentation due
- Time Management Report for Week 6 and This Week how ironic
oh, my poor brain.
p.s. I apologize if I haven’t gotten back to your emails and messages! My schedule has been insane from Day 1! I will get back to you as soon as possible…
At the @poketo opening ceremony in LA. Such a cozy event! (Taken with Instagram)
It feels as if I just came out from the scariest roller coaster ride of my life. On Saturday, our car lost control on the freeway and the car dived and flipped twice into the embankment. My mom and I, despite dust on our faces and a few tiny scratches, were left for the most part, unscathed. We were totally fine.
For me, the gravity of the incident didn’t seem to sink as deeply as it has with my uncle and my aunt who only saw the sight of the totaled car and started tearing up about what could have been. But when the paramedics, the cops, and the firemen told us that we were lucky to be alive, I set their genuine sentiments aside. “Luck”? Clearly it was something more than that. We were told that there have been 6 fatalities in that area in the past month alone. Six separate accidents, six people dead. In my mind, we could’ve been the seventh. How could I fathom escaping from that hell ride with only a tiny scratch to show for it?
I’ll never forget what the cop said when he saw me as he opened the door on my side. “You were inside the car? You look like you just came out of the shower and hopped in right after the whole accident!” I can’t even bring myself to fully grasp what just happened to me. My faith in God is unwavering, but I’ve always hoped that I could witness any kind of sign from Him––anything that would clearly tell me his intentions for my life. Then on that Saturday morning, I believe I just witnessed a miracle.
Edit: ah, it was Saturday, not Friday. Got my days mixed up.
“how’s your summer been?”
“oh you know.. i’m always on my computer.. working…”
haha. i’m terrible at this game but i love it.
Taking a catnap from #work. (Taken with Instagram)
late night with Salinger.
I recently discovered this adorable hole-in-the-wall cafe in the san gabriel valley called Cafe Maji. So cute, you’ll feel like you’re in a set of a korean drama.
May I recommend the affogato with plain waffle? mmm.